friends in low places

i just woke up about an hour ago. i slept like a rock all night. i don't know what the hell is wrong with me, but i must have needed it. i woke up feeling oddly guilty and anxious. for nothing really all that bad, mostly self centered fears that have absolutely no bearing in reality. then i opened myspace to check my account, and saw that i had a message from a really dear friend of mine's boyfriend from la, asking me to call him asap. let me preface this by saying that this friend was involved in the program and had just recently moved to la to pursue her "acting" career if you catch my drift. anyway apparently she's now in the hospital after a weekful of binge drinking and pill use and not being able to be sober enough to get herself on the plane. she had almost a year and a half sober. i called her mom to try to get to see her but apparently she had asked her if she was ready to see anyone in her support system and she said no. obviously she's not ready, but i can't help but feel that her parents are shielding her from what will save their little girl. not that we can save her, but we're certainly versed in dealing with addiction and can show that we're there for her no matter what. the only thing i can do at this point is pray for her. it's scary.