this week has been pretty boring. go to work, go home take a nap, go to a meeting, and then eat dinner and go to sleep. i've been eating a lot of junky food lately and not really taking care of myself. i get like that when i've got a lot of other stuff going on and especially when i'm on my period. i've been feeling really guilty about it, which is completely ridiculous because all i really need to do is just stop doing it and try a little everyday. i've been cutting out caffeine for the past three days because it was getting really ridiculous the amount of espresso and coffee i drink on an everyday basis. it was starting to really make me feel awful. this is the second time i've done this and i guess that's what happens when an alchoholic works at starbucks. i've noticed that i've been sleeping a lot better. i guess that makes sense. it's like i don't even let my body get a chance to be tired i just pump it up with coffee the first chance i get. it's just a way for me not to feel an uncomfortable feeling, which is totally an alcoholic way to be. sometimes i'm powerless over caffeine and food. i'm working on it.
jason made our shop's website last night. it's really nice. we were talking about our ideas for making it look better and what cosmetic changes we're going to make and i'm getting really excited about it. i'm so pumped to have my own section on the website for my tattoos and paintings. it's super motivating and i'm so excited!!! he made one of the logos a few nights ago and has been playing around with different ones too. it's so cool to see him so into it, i really think it's going to be a great thing for him. starting in january i'll be tattooing. it's really pretty unreal that it's happening so quickly, but the way it all came about seems right. it's funny how things change when you actually show up for your life everyday and work at stuff a little bit at at time. i used to just be paralyzed by fear of doing the most mundane things and wonder if i'd ever do anything with myself besides get myself into dramatic situations and obsess over them for months at a time. i can't tell you how amazing it feels to be free from that. i really feel like i can do anything and the positive and energetic person that i've always been inside is finally coming out. it feels pretty fucking great.
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